The truth is, I don't believe I
I have done it all and I don't want to do any of it again. I know that the Fat Smash Diet really works. Works WONDERS. I just did it recently and I don't flippin' wana do it again. Not now. I decided to track calories on MyFitnessPal....but holy crap people! 1200 calories is really hard to stay at. I am going to the library tonight to (once again) go through all the diet books on the shelves. If any one has tried anything that has worked or can recommend anything I would love some advice. I need something I haven't tried before. Only something shiny and new will work when I am feeling like this.
Really I know that my problem isn't on my plate...it's in my brain. I binge and overeat. I don't know why. Maybe I wasn't held enough as a baby...or maybe too much... or maybe I just like having a party in my mouth. I don't know what it is but I need to fix it and I feel like I can't do it on my own. I looked up Over Eaters Anonymous. It's a 12 step program. How's that for "bottom of the barrell"?? I found some in my area but none are at times that I can make.
Maybe I should just try duct tape......
It's sad to think that this past month I really was on the ball with exercise and yet still gained 5 pounds. It makes me sick to think that if I could have just dragged my fat butt away from the ice cream aisle that I could be down to my mini goal of 225 pounds. Exercise does not compensate for the binge. I weighed in at 240.8 pounds.
I'm not sorry that I kept up my exercise though. I do feel fitter, if not thinner. In fact, I walked 2 5K's in May. The first one was not timed...but the second one was. The last 5K I walked was in 2010 and my time was 01:01:22. This year my time was 55:58. I shaved over 5 minutes off my time!! I really pushed myself. Yes, I know that's still really slow, but it averages to about 3.3 mph and that is really great for ME.
I had some cute stinkin' hair for the 5K too!! And that always helps.
They both look this this from the front.
Just a side dutch braid.
This one is a dutch braid with a bun.
And this one is a dutch braid wound back and forth across my head.
I hope when I go scavenging for diet books I find something that cons me into believing again. Because it's great to believe. Even if it's in Fairy Tales. Cuz that Fairy Tale where I can actually get control of my eating has one very Happily Ever After ending.