Rebound

I broke up with Scale....and hooked up with Ben & Jerry.  It was just a rebound thing. Nothing serious. But I know when I'm beat.  I gave "eating junk in moderation" a real try.  I think I did pretty good for the first 2 weeks.  And then...then...I couldn't even tell you.

I feel like a witness to a hit and run accident.  Everything was a blur. It all happened so fast.  There was a lot of screaming...

However, when I walked into BigLots and walked out with a bag of salt & vinegar potato chips and a family pack of Rice Krispy treats, I knew it was time to hit the reset button.  Let's just start over.

Hello Fat Smash Diet: Phase 1..... it's been a while. Good to see you again.

That means I'm having this for breakfast.

Steel Cut Oats with Berries

I made Split Pea Soup, Avgolemono Soup, and Coconut Lime Soup for lunch. And I'm having veggie stir fry for dinner.

Basically the most exciting thing in my lunch box is this....

Kumquats

These little guys look like the love child of an orange and an olive. They look like super tiny oranges.

And you eat the skin and everything. They are super sour yet sweet.  Kinda like a healthy WarHead.


On a happy note, my 50 Pound Reward is HERE!!!

It's so pretty!  I admit that I have a hard time with self control (Big surprise, I know...) and I did wear it already.  Ironically, the clasp kept coming undone....making the watch almost fly off my wrist a few times.  I brought it to a really cool jewelry store up the street and he tightened the clasp (for freeee) and that fixed it.  But I tucked it safely in my jewelry drawer.

Hopefully come June 1st when Scale and I reunite, I will be down to 225 pounds and can slap that sucker on my wrist!!

Reward & Punishment

I am so close to the 50 pound mark I can taste it! This will bring me down to 225 pounds. Ten more pounds to go before I get there.  I wanted to mark this milestone by rewarding myself with something special and unique.  And I found it.

Isn't it adorable and lovely?  I don't have it in my clutches yet...but soon..oh so soon!  I love owls. And I think it's a fitting symbol for weight loss success.  Owls are a symbol of wisdom...which makes me think of this....

"Wisdom is proved righteous by its works." --Matthew 11:19

I have made some wise choices and worked hard and it shows!

I am in Phase 4 of the Fat Smash Diet.  This phase allows for yummy and delicious things.  It also requires that I increase my workouts to 45 minutes 5 days a week. Not horrible. Very doable. I have been really good about allowing myself to have treats within the portion sizes allowed on the diet.
 
There is something incredibly empowering about being able to have a little bit of something delectable.  The fact that I am able to do this makes me feel like I have super powers.

At first I was going to skip the treats all together.  The idea of having junk in my house terrified me. I had to remind myself that the ice cream in my freezer is more scared of me than I am of it (as well it should be).  I am so glad that I took this chance. This is my real ultimate goal. To be able to enjoy treats in moderation. And not have it trigger a feeding frenzy.

Due to the fact that I have added extras into my diet, I am even more strict with getting my workouts in. And I think I may be going a little overboard.  Earlier this week I started my day with 30 minutes on the elliptical, swam for an hour, and then went for a one hour bike ride in the evening. It was too much. Much too much. I chose to do all those things mostly because they were all fun and I wanted to...but if I'm honest with myself it's because I am terrified of what that scale will say Monday because of eating all these extra calories.  I don't want to use exercise as a punishment.  I hate when I feel this way. I lost zero pounds last week and I know if the same thing happens this week (or God forbid, goes UP), I will be devastated.  I don't want to be THAT girl.  The girl who lets her mood be governed by the number on the scale. How do I stop this?

Here is a shot of how my hair looked after I slept in braids, took them out and pinned it back :-)

Here is the back view....

And a pic of me with Hubs.

On a much less vain note....as you can see by that count down on my side bar... the March of Dimes: Walk for Babies is right around the corner.

I was told it was going to be a short 2 mile walk on the beach.  Turns out it's a 5K.  I feel very very under prepared. I am a really slow walker.  But this is a cause that is near and dear to my heart.  I will have fun and be glad I did it....but right now I am scared.

The first (and last) time I did a 5K I finished 3rd to last.  The worst part is that this information comes up when I Google myself (like you don't!).  I hope old friends from High School aren't stumbling across this embarrassing bit of information when they get to wondering what I have been up to... cringe.

Really though, I am not concerned with the time. I'm happy I'm doing it and will have a blast!