Monday, April 30, 2012

Breaking Up is Hard to Do


He says I walk all over him.  I can't take the verbal abuse and mood swings.  I know I need him.... but I also need a break.  It's hard, yes.  But it's time.  Really, it's not him, it's me.  I have been so co-dependent. And I give him way too much control over my emotions. 

I have made my decision. Scale and I are breaking up. 

Well, it's more like we are "taking a break" (Ross and Rachel style).  More of a separation than a divorce. 

I will weigh myself on June 1st.  Not before then.

This Phase 3 has been brutal.  Trying to eat "treats" in moderation is an emotional roller coaster ride. One minute I'm in control using a 1/2 cup measuring spoon to serve up my low fat frozen yogurt.....the next minute, I am awakened from my carb coma by the sound of my spoon hitting the bottom of the Ben & Jerry's container.

A huge part of me wants to just give up on this *have some in moderation* idea.  I want to go back to the safety of Phase 2, which might mean that I have frozen cherries instead of frozen yogurt for dessert but at least I'm less likely to fall off the deep end.  But I can't do that.  I need to learn how to eat in a BALANCED way.  Because I want this weight loss to be long term.  I need to figure this out.  And I need to do it on my own.  Without the scale. There are only 2 more weeks of this land-mine filled Phase 3.  After that I begin the cycle again and go back to Phase 1. 

Despite my food issues, I had a pretty good time this weekend.  Hubs and I got a Groupon for this sushi place.  It was AMAZING.  We each got the Dinner Roll Special (3 rolls of sushi plus salad or soup for $12....Holy raw fish, Batman!)

Isn't it pretty? That's a Spicy Salmon Roll, Tuna Roll, and California Roll.

Then we got Tempura ice cream...mmmm fried ice cream...

The bill came to $11.04.  I felt like we had robbed the place!  Look at all that food we got!

On a sad note, I woke up Sunday morning with a horrible head cold. Super sick today.  So no exercise.  I guess this is a good week to break up with Scale....I know he will have nothing good to say about that.  He is such a nag!

Wish me the best! This is all so scary and new.

16 comments:

  1. I so hear ya on the trying to splurge in moderation thing. Sometimes I do great and feel great about it. Sometimes I feel like "well, I got away with it so far - a little more this time won't hurt". Or I don't think I at all. I just devour and savor. But then I wonder - yes, I'm having OVERALL success, slowly but surely. But how much more dramatic would my success be if I was really sticking to my plan? And my plan can include sporadic indulgences. (Not 4 times week!) Imagine our progress reports and images then?? Wow!

    Nice deal on the sushi, lady! I took my daughter and her best friend out for sushi/hibachi last week and spent $100 and change. (with tip.) Ouch!!

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    1. I think that ALL the time!!! How much farther along I would be if I really buckled down...

      Aw!! You are such a good mom :-) I bet they had a ton of fun.

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  2. This post. Yes! I broke up with weighing myself daily/weekly and it's for the best. It lets me focus on workouts food rather than letting a stupid number dictate my mood. And balance.....Sigh....Yes!

    The pic is hilarious! As usual your post makes me chuckle!

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    1. I know. And you really inspired me. I always thought I would start to slack off if I didnt weigh myself...but your posts show you are doing anything but slacking!! I cant wait to see how the weigh in goes!!

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  3. I love having a separation from the scale, it's like a little holiday for me and I'm more motivated than before!

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  4. Ahhh, as you know I'm contemplating the same thing. I think it will be liberating, but also a bit scary? But I think we know what to do, and more importantly what NOT to do, even if we don't constantly weigh in!

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    1. Exactly. But I think you're right about it being scary. And maybe for good reason?? I think it's worth the risk!

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  5. There are things I'll probably never be able to eat in moderation -- ice cream and peanut butter come to mind. But, the good news is that I love frozen yogurt and it does not produce the same cravings that ice cream does. I usually keep peanut butter out of the house altogether because out of sight is mostly out of mind. I think a lot of us are addicted to carbs unfortunately. Good luck with week six. :)

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    1. Interesting! Maybe I need to figure out my "trigger foods"...maybe not all treats will push me over the edge?

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  6. Your photo is hilarious! Good luck on week 6 -- and taking a "break"! :D

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  7. Taking a break from the scale is something I've had a tough time to do. Good for you for making the decision to focus on your long-term healthy lifestyle versus a temporary fix. Good luck! :)

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    1. Yeah, I really am kinda nervous about it...I guess we will see how "smart" this decision was a month from now :-)

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  8. I love the photo. Too funny! I need to break up with my scale too but I'm afraid if I quit weighing in every day that I won't stay as accountable. Hope you have a great week!

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  9. Good call on the break up! It will allow you to focus on other parts of getting health!

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